This blog is here because I had gotten kicked out of the SRC comments section for being obnoxious, consistently obnoxious. Now, for those who would recall that and wonder what was the deal with the trolling … I got insulted there on SRC at one point. It was nothing really, but within me I have a reservoir of chippy-ness that can be tapped and it took on a life of its own as a performance at SRC. Ya know, internet, dumb internet. But I am not actually cray-cray or ill-tempered or even all that merely irascible in truth.
What I really actually liked at SRC was the graduate level, smart people conversation. I wanted to continue that, and wanted to “debate” politics. Thought I’d draw an audience on my own page here, but that did not happen. This was not because I didn’t write enough, I did do that. But I did not do the network linkages / marketing to cultivate a following. Also, blogs died in the interim because of Facebook, so this more became a space for a guy with a lot of noise in his head to work on thought composition. BTW I’m a fan of the WordPress suite.
I think it’s been a great thing for that. Now, what’s also happened in the last 4 years is I think I’m a happier, mellower dude. I don’t know if that’s concomitant with aging or concomitant with the blog and writing. Fair to say I was / am on a search for truth and wisdom though, as we all kind of are, and one thing is I can’t write things down, then re-read them and see they are basically lies. They have to stick as truth for them to make it past the self-editing process.
I wrote a fair amount and this happened quite a bit for me when contemplating angry, reactionary conservatism. I couldn’t make the RW words stick in a lot of cases. So, I am mellower politically now having edited some RW untruths out of my life thinking. Still pretty libertarian of course cuz… freedom, ‘merica.
But I have a readership too right… 2 dedicated readers, and one of them comments… A thing that happened a while ago, might have been a couple of those years gone by, was the commenter articulated the notion, I think it was, of being pointlessly oppositional as a conservative / righty. I could search it but I don’t really need to. Whenever that moment was, it was very powerful, and I think it benefitted my mind and soul. A lot of the right is pointlessly oppositional. …dicks… To be a real thinker about things and to contribute to the dialogue you have to not oppose for oppositions sake. Gotta listen and relinquish when proper. Thanks for that PM!
The rest is history, now I’m pro single payer and I work at MnSure.
Anyway, some other reasons I’ve kept up a writing regimen:
· It’s a diary
· It’s a dude’s diary, a stoic working man’s diary. I don’t think stoic men put their perspective in words enough.
· It’s a diary, and I think it would be neat if in 300 years some doctoral candidate picked out a piece of my word construction here as representative of the zeitgeist or even THE TRUTH of the time, ya know.
· It’s a diary, and I figure I might be proximate to history at some point and have something meaningful to say about it.
· I wanted to record some observations about the contemporary workplace and my trade that the business press is missing.
Anyway, the blog goes on, free form as it has, in pursuit of general wisdom and goodness.